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It was hot. I’m talking topless English men with scarlet chests hot. Don’t get me wrong. I like the heat. In fact – I would have loved to have trained in some warmth. But alas, when I last ran I was in leggings and a thermal, long-sleeved top, exhaling smoke and wondering whether my fingers were going to fall off. It drained me pretty quickly. I was careful to keep to the shaded areas where possible, hit every shower and was quite regimented with my timings. 11 minute miles for the first 4, which quickened ever-so-slightly when I’d got through a wave of sickness and started to adjust.
I wasn’t thinking about the distance. To look ahead at that point would have been like looking into a black hole. I just smiled a lot and ran with the crowd. The crowd. What an unbelievable crowd. I’ve never in my life experienced anything like that before. There were so many of us packed in together radiating heat and energy. At times it felt difficult to breathe, but mostly we carried each other along. A giant wave flooding through the streets.
I could relive the race mile by mile, but when I spoke to Katy this morning and edged into the 20’s I found it too much and ended up crying into the phone. Instead I’ll write about it from how it will be remembered for years to come. The supporters. The moments I heard my name.
Mile 6. Quarter of the way through. I’d just stopped feeling sick and was starting to feel quite confident in my stride. No shooting pains and I was getting the intake of water and lucozade just right. Wasn’t expecting anyone for a while yet, and then suddenly I heard my name. It was high-pitched and urgent – piercing through my left ear, funneled into my brain, and caused a knee-jerk reaction. I turned my face towards the voices, and there they were – Lucy, Sue and dad, jumping up and down, arms flailing wildly. Without even thinking I darted across the road with uncharacteristic speed and reached out to them smiling and waving, “it’s fucking hot!” I said, and felt much better having been able to complain to someone about it. Chuckling to myself I carried on, their voices captured and stored.
Mile 9. Blue for water; Yellow for sun; Black for the power of the people. I saw the bright and bold colours of the Bahamian flag from about a mile off. My family were near, and my slackened pace picked up once again. I weaved my way towards the right hand side of the road, and slowly their faces came into focus. They were frantically scanning the crowds and so I started to wave. It was Daniel who saw me first, and flickers of recognition crackled and sparked across their faces like an electric current until all at once I was right beside them, body held upright, hand outstretched. High-fives all-round and the volume of their collective voice was almost deafening. exhilarating. Once again, I captured their energy and packed it away.
It was shortly after I saw them that the pain started to kick in. An amazing person told me to break it down. Ten miles. Another ten miles. Then it’s just another 10k. I was ten miles in, same again. You can do it Laura. You can do it. I took it one step further and broke 10-20 into three stages. 5k would get me to half way through the marathon. No stopping if you get to half way. Next 5k would get me past the half way point of this 10 mile section, and then I’m close to no-man’s land. 18 miles. You’ve done it before. You can do it again. Thankfully I’m terrible at maths so all this dividing and calculating occupied me enough to distract me from the inevitable stiffness that was creeping into legs unworn. Remember, in the last four weeks I’d run a total of 8km.
I saw Andy B at mile 12. Outside a pub – as promised. Yelling my name if he saw me – as promised. My bottle of part lucozade/part water wasn’t working as well for me as it had in training. So I asked him to look after it for me. Handing it over as if I was abandoning something dear to me. What struck me most was how happy supporters were to spot their friends, and relatives. They shared that same look. Eyes lighting up and voice gaining momentum as they screamed. Their voices. Those wonderful voices that were filled with so much care, encouragement and compassion. To run a marathon is very lonely, despite being surrounded by so many. It was those voices that got to me.
Mile 13 -14, getting just past half-way. Half-way. Fear behind. There was Julia B and Nina. What a moment. Julia’s face was red from screaming my name. I was in so much pain, and I was half-way…only half-way. When I saw her I wanted to run to the barrier and hug her. Road ahead. I had to keep going. For the first time that day my chest tightened and I couldn’t breathe. I was so overwhelmed by everything and everybody, and time was slipping away. I felt my eyes burning and clenched my jaw. Get to no-man’s land…get to no-man’s land.
The 16-20 mile chunk of the race was pretty bleak if I’m going to be brutally honest. I was forced to walk at mile 19. I wasn’t alone. A guy put his hand on my shoulder when he saw me brush frustrated tears away. “I’ve got nothing left” he said. We talked for a bit about IT Bands and how debilitating the pain could be. Mile 20 came into view. Just another 10k. I shook his hand, wished him luck…just another 10k.
I can’t quite describe what it felt like trying to force my creaking body back into a running motion. There was a crunching of bones, and jagged, uncoordinated movements. This is when my jedi-knight yoga came into play. I looked inwards and breathed into my hips, my knees, my ankles, my lower spine. I tightened my bandhas, and forced my shoulders up and back. I had just over 6 miles to go. I could still make it within 5 hours if I kept running through to the end.
21 miles. I had to walk again. Then I saw the comforting glow of Oxfam Green. Bandhas, spine, smile, breathe!
There were loads of them! Cheering and yelling. Determination is everything lining the streets. I picked my feet up once again and rocked my body into a slow-moving jog. Man alive those last few miles took a long time. I clung to those voices with desperate hands and stuffed them down into storage, careful to not let miles 6, 9, 12 and 13 escape. Come on Laura. You can do this!
23. Had to walk again. There was nothing left. I was done. 5k to go. I tried to imagine the easy 5k route close to home. Out the door up through Iffley village, across the lock, along the river and back again. It’s easy! I could do it in my sleep. 5k. That’s all. 5k.
Bandhas, spine, smile, breathe. CREAK!
Then I saw him. My saviour. Leaning over the barrier and screaming: “Hancock you’re a hero!”
I could have kissed him. The lovely, remarkable Phil, with a 2.46 marathon to his name. I steered my body towards him, using my arms and shoulders to add a bit of momentum and held his hand as I passed by.
3 miles left. Laura you HAVE to do this. You have to do this.
I had lost sight of 5 hours. I’d have to push it back once again. 5 hours 10. I could do it in 5 hours 10 if I just keep running to the end.
Power within.